Journal

Quiet thoughts, said out loud.

Five days without a word (with sound)"You keep ghosting me." Yeah. Don't take it seriously. I barely talk to my own family. I just don't have the energy to reply. I can go five days without speaking to anyone, and I'm the happiest man on the planet.
Just a friend (with sound)"Don't worry about him. He's just a friend." And you didn't. That was what trusting her looked like. Six months later, she left. And he was the one she left with. You found out the way you find out most things. Last. How do you trust…
Liking someone (with sound)Most people don't realize how rare it is for an introvert to actually start liking someone. It took me my whole life to meet a person I can spend time with and not hate every second of it. I don't think I have the energy to find that again.
The elevator (with sound)If something scares you, it means you should do it. Right, I do everything scared. My anxiety is on the same level as someone being hunted for sport. Say hello to someone? No, thank you. Be alone with a stranger in an elevator? Is that…
The best days (with sound)You never realize you're living the best days of your life until they're gone. Your daughter shouting in the next room, banging on your door while you work, the stress about money. And when it's all gone, you understand you were living a…
Simple mathematics (with sound)I stopped dating. It's not because I'm bitter. It all comes down to simple mathematics. A really beautiful relationship is a once in a lifetime thing. And I've already had mine.
First Christmas alone (with sound)Christmas is coming, and it's my first one alone. The shops are playing the songs, the windows have their lights on. I walked past the Christmas trees twice. I'm starting to hate this time of year.